Thursday was senior day. we had senior breakfast, practice for graduation, senior cookout, and the pre-graduation assembly. I had to decorate my hat, it was pretty sick. I love crafting, it reminds me of my old self. Thursday was such a great day, just a great time spent with great friends. the entire time i was just living up being a senior. i dont want it to end. it's so sad to me. i look around at all the people i smiled with and laughed with that day, and i realize that most of these people i WASNT friends with last year. and now we're inseperable.
last night i hung out with the best group of kids, some of my closest friends, and i hadnt even MET some of them this time last year. why did i have to meet my best friends the last year of my high school career? i wish i couldve met these wonderful people earlier, so i couldve had more time with them. I feel like i've really transformed this year, i've become a completely different person. yes, every now and then i resort to my old ways and i let my old self get the best of me, but not often. this year i've unlocked the ability to love in a way that i never knew was possible. and by doing that i've been LOVED in a way that i never thought possible. I've built the closest friendships i could imagine, and hopefully they'll last a lifetime, because honestly i dont know how to survive without my best friends.
They're all great for different things. Lauren's known me the longest, and she's my "hang out and do nothing" type of friend. like honestly, lauren and i can have the best time doing NOTHING. and i love it. we can just sit around and watch project runway, or make movies, or play backyard baseball and have a great time. i dont have to worry about being weird around her.
Michael is my closest friend. he knows the most about me. i let him know the most about me 1. because he has this weird way of getting it out of me, even if its something i dont want to say, and 2. because he gives good advice. he's one of the people i can trust with anything and everything, because he has such a good heart and he's strong, even when i'm not. i like to have someone as strong as he is in my life, because sometimes i need to borrow that strength, and he helps me.
Alex is my other best guy friend. i love this kid so sooo soo much. i've enjoyed so much getting to know him and love on him this year. we've become so close that his mom thinks we're attached at the hip....probably because we basically are. i love spending time with alex, and although we fight like a married couple sometimes (LAWLZ) he can almost always make me smile.
Meg is my leader. i love her so much. we are so similar in so many ways. i want to be just like her when i get to be her age, she's a great role model and mentor. the way she loves on all of us girls is breathtaking. i really try to think like megan when i love on my friends, my wyldlife girls, and my capernaum friends. Meg has become one of my best friends, she knows just as much about me as mikey. sometimes it's easier to tell her things though, because odds are it's something she's been through before. she's older, and wiser. i can only hope to be like her when i start leading next year in columbia; i'd be happy if i could touch even one girl's life like she's touched mine.
Tricia is my sister in Christ. i love her to death. i see a lot of myself in her. the way she cares so deeply about her lost friends, it's something i really appreciate, because i've felt the same. we care so much, and sometimes others dont understand it, and they likely never will. Tricia is my girl. It's so strange because i didnt even meet her until labor day 2010, and didnt even start getting to know her til this december. and yet we've become so close. through the ups and downs with boys and friends, we've stuck together. a lot of times she's the one i need to talk to about things because i know she'll understand, even when others wont, and i think i'm the same to her. I love her a lot and i cant wait to see how she transforms in her last years of high school.
Kate is also my sister in Christ. these two girls are my go-to girls. odds are, if there's something going on in my life, i can talk to one of them about it. if there's something i can't talk to tricia about (which is rare) odds are i can talk to kate. kate is very on and off sometimes, which some people see as a flaw, but i dont. i think it makes her who she is, and that's so real. i can see how it could rub someone the wrong way, but she's my sister and i'll never let her go. she was the first person in my now group of friends that i really opened up to, we didn't get to know each other until december either. i love her.
it's so sad to me that my high school career is coming to a close, and soon i wont be able to see these people every day like i do now. i'm sad that i wont be able to laugh with alex every day in calculus. i wont be able to be picked on by michael on a daily basis (yeah, i may say i hate it, but i'll really miss it). i wont be able to text Ms. Danger "come out" and walk outside and she's there. i wont be able to laugh and cry and scream with tricia every day in my car. there will be no more crying on Meg's shoulder, or stalking with kate when i'm bored. this is gonna be the good life? no. this IS the good life.
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