this = love

so i havent posted in a few days. why? because i've been having the best few days a girl could ask for. monday i went shopping with some awesome girls and then to a meet that night. the meet was the best one yet. i was just cheering for everyone and living it up. the little kids love me. it's great. for real that team is like a family to me. others dont understand it. like for real the coaches are like my family. i had a really good talk with one of them at the meet. it was kind of weird. but good-weird. only weird because he caught me off guard. it's great to know they care about me like i care about them. it allows us to build a deeper relationship. i love it, and i'm so happy he talked to me.

Tuesday i had practice in the morning...which was the most fun fun-practice ever. we always have fun practices the day after a meet, but this one was especially fun. we played shark and marco polo and went off the diving boards....ahh it was so fun. then i went home and watched tv. and slept. and watched more tv. and slept some more then watched pretty little liars and went to bed. i had been pretty tired, obvi. i guess you could say it was a boring day. but lets be honest, we all need to take a "me" day every once in awhile.

Wednesday i babysat alllll day long, but it's okay i took the kids to the pool and got tannn and i made good money. then we had night practice, then i went to the park and play capture the flag with awesome people. i love when we have get togethers cause i get to meet new friends.

Today i had practice, then i hung with Tricia all day, and now i'm about to head off to campaigners. i'm so glad this summer has panned out successfully. it could have either been really boring or really awesome. it chose the latter.

is it bad that amongst all this fun that i hardly ever think about my friends that are gone? i guess not. michael texted me the other day and said he was sorry for not responding to my letter and that he was busy but he loved me. and honestly, getting that text was the first time i'd thought about him in like a week. i've really been thinking more about my friends here and the new deep relationships i'm building. i'm kind of apprehensive for them to come back. yes, i love them but sometimes i think my life is easier without them. i tend to get insecure around them. that's probs not good. but around my swim family i'm a totally different, more confident, better person. i sometimes wish my friends could see me like that. see me around the kids and with the coaching staff. i wish i could be that person all the time. i'm soooo comfortable to be myself around them. but not always people like kate and michael. i dont really know why. i'm totally myself around tricia though, that's why i love hanging with her. i wish i could figure out how to be that person all the time.

p.s. i'm pretty tan. did i already say that?