we sang this at club tonight. not my favorite song, mostly because of Erik at the pool. he gets a little annoying with it in the summer. Tonight was good. I went to mill mountain with two of my best guy friends. i love them. one's been going through a tough time, and is having trouble trusting. we wanted to be there for him. i'm glad he trusts me, because i love him a lot. people are being douchebags to him, and i totally feel for him because the same thing happened to me earlier in the year. problem with me was, i didnt really have anyone to talk about it with. hopefully i can be that person for him. i wish people would realize that with power comes the power to hurt people, even if it is unintentional. we need to worry less about saving our own backs and open our eyes to see if a brother is having a tough time. and most importantly, don't try to make yourself look good in how you handle it. that won't solve anything. being all high and mighty will only get you so far with so many people, it's the others who see deception in you who you're hurting. be genuine and loving all the time. to lead, we should not just love that "group" of people who we are called to lead. we should love EVERYONE. ALL THE TIME. i just wish all of our high school leaders could get that through their brains. i try to constantly and consistently love everyone. while i know i'm not perfect, i feel i understand the vision better than they do. well, maybe not better than they do, because that's being judgemental. maybe i just see the vision of the body in such a profound way, it really speaks to me. i feel like some of our leaders, even the "top notch" high school leaders get caught up in what people think of them. which isnt good because then they end up stepping on people's toes and hurting them. as i said, with power to lead comes the power to hurt...both emotionally and spiritually.
^^this is just a start of the rant that's been long coming on my blog. i will work on it tomorrow. xoxo
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