new year

these first 24 hours of 2012 have been good. I got to ring in the new year with all of my best friends in roanoke. i saw everyone at the Manzara's first, then i went to emily's house. it was a good night. we watched the ball drop then played 2012 by Jay Sean, then wobble and wop, and then we danced for a good hour and a half. it was so fun. i got to meet new friends too. from Clemson. ewie. but they were cool. then church this morning was great, then i went ice skating with Tricia and Katie! then dinner with the fam, then just hangin out cause it's a school night for my high school friends, and the others weren't allowed out cause they were out late last night. lame! oh, and i ate a black eyed pea. my mom makes me eat one every new years for luck. and that's the only black eyed pea i will eat all year. i hate them. to whoever made that tradition, why cant it be eat a chocolate bar on new years for luck?

so, a few posts back i told you that Ally challenged our bible study to come up with a gift for Jesus this year. so i'm going to do that instead of a new years resolution, cause, lets be honest, new years resolutions last til January 10th.

i'm really good about spending time with the Lord at school. i'm just on fire for the Lord in columbia for some reason. but in Roanoke it's the opposite. i get depressed and i feel lonely often, cause i have trouble keeping the habit of spending time with the Lord up in Roanoke. so this year, i'm going to work really hard at that. i always feel like i'm being poured into in Columbia. with College Life and bible study and leader weekends and placement and work crew weekend coming up that will be so easy. it is just easy there. but here it's not. here i think about boys a lot. too often. and i think about how easy it would be to go party with my friends. and i think about how i miss columbia. and i think about my parents driving me crazy. and i worry about keeping up with friends from high school. and i think about people from columbia. does any of that sound like it's focused on Christ at all? nope. but it should be. if i can be so on fire for the Lord in South Carolina, why shouldn't it be that way in Virginia? all i know is that i've been struggling a lot this break, so i'm gonna change that. and i'm gonna work hard on that every other time i'm home. i'm going to read and journal every day like i do at school. i know that i have people that look up to me here, and i want to set a good example for them. and i want to be able to help them in their walk however i can, and i'm going to be a lot better suited for that if i'm fully focused on the Lord. so my gift to Jesus this year is to spend time with him EVERYday, not just days at school. i want to train myself to crave time with the Father, not just with friends.  and i have another one, but it's pretty personal. between me and the Lord.