sweet night

tonight was just swell. i got to hang out with an awesome guy from another school. i really love this kid. he just texted me and wanted to hang out, and i wasnt doing anything so i figured, why not. i'm so glad i did. i'd been having an off day, school was super stressful, and i've just been frustrated lately. it's just been an off week so far. but hanging with this kid totally cheered me up. I love him. i can actually be real with him, which is so rare for me. like i can be 100% my goofy, normal self, yet really open at the same time. usually it's one or the other. like, with my school friends, i can always be goofy and just let lose which is so freeing. i dont have to have my guard up around them, like i so often feel like i have to. but with a lot of my school friends, i can't really have that deep relationship that i have with my brothers and sisters. yet, sometimes with my brothers and sisters i feel like i have my guard up and i can't act fully NORMAL around them. like i'm afraid to be my goofy self. it's basically one or the other with most of my friends. but not this kid. that's why i enjoyed hanging with him so much. i seriously havent laughed as hard as i did tonight in a long time. we were surfing the web and found the most hi-larious pics ever, this is one of our faves. i.almost.died.laughing.