life in technicolor

i've never been this ready to go home. and i've only been back at college for a week. i just know what's in store for me next week: finals. it seems so weird that my first semester of college is already over. i've done pretty well in my classes. of course, there are some that i would like to have higher grades in. but that's okay. i am stressing. relatives are bombarding me asking what i want for christmas and all i can think about it studying and finals. i don't want to do it. thanksgiving break was such a tease. such a great time spent at home, only to have to go back to college for two hard weeks. I'm excited to have a month at home. i'm excited that my friend Kristin is coming back with me. i'm excited to not have to even think about school work for all of break. whatever i get on finals, that's it. i'm done. the classes are over and i can't change it.
i'm excited to go back and have lots of days like last friday. i want to go hiking. i want to hang out with lorene in the country. i want to go to the star often. and see people i haven't seen since summer. i just can't wait to have more time. my time has been so limited on other breaks. since summer, i've spent 10 days in roanoke. now i'm gonna get 30 whole days. so much time. and such a much needed break.

i am in the library right now. it is killing me. i want to study but my mind wanders too much. i'm thinking about home. all of its issues. it is going to be hard to not get sucked into all of that crap over break. i think i can do it thought. i think i can be strong. i know who i can lean on if times get tough.

this post is filled with random thoughts. sorry. i sometimes try to organize my posts. sometimes i just write what i think. actually, more often i just write what i'm thinking. it is easier. right now I'm thinking that i like country music. I'm thinking how i hate studying. I'm thinking about christmas. or should i say CHRISTmas. now I'm thinking about my Lord.