rollercoaster

today has been a crazy day. and not in a good way. i woke up and had a normal day. hung out with julia. i love her a lot. then i got bad news. but the sad thing is, it wasn't bad news. it just brought back a lot of pain from last year. the thing is, i don't know why i still care. i hate that. i am in college. i have a new life. why do i care about old burdens? i am just getting a little annoyed of that still affecting me. so i'm praying about that. cause it hurts. a lot. so i wouldn't call that news bad news. just upsetting news. then i got good news. my Aussie friend Ali is going to transfer to college in Tennessee! i'm so excited to see her again! when she left, i seriously thought i may never see her again, but it looks like i will now, and soon! that made my day a lot better.

then i was talking to tricia. i am very worried about her. there was bad news there. i don't know what to do. i pray for her every day. i worry that that's not enough. i love her so much. i wish i could put it into words. she is my sister in Christ, first and foremost, but she's also my best friend. i worry because we struggled through very similar things last year. parents and the community in Roanoke. but i got away from it. i wonder what would have happened if i haven't. i am afraid that is what's happening to her. that scares me a lot. but all i can do is be there for her and pray. so that's what i do. i hope that's enough. i love you Tricia.

So all in all this has been quite the whirlwind day. doesn't sound like much, i know. but these are all things i am very attached too. so they threw me for a loop. these things are a part of me. forever. and always.