sucks to suck

i am growing apart with one of my best friends. that makes me very sad. he has changed a lot this year. for the worst, if you ask me. i hate it. we were so close. we could talk about everything. now he never has time for me. sometimes i ask myself if i'm asking too much of him. but is it too much to ask to talk to one of your best friends once every two weeks or so? if it is, then we're better off not being close. i can't handle that. i know that the Lord has a plan for everything. so maybe this is for the best. but it doesn't feel good, either way ya spin it.

We talked last night. it was good, i guess. heck, it was a conversation. that's something. sinners vs. saints. it was a good conversation. like the ones we used to have. except now, our conversations never end because they are through text message, and i am always the last to reply. so not really that great of a conversation after all. i just miss him i guess. i feel silly saying that. i definitely idolized that relationship. that's one of the things i've learned recently. i was talking to a new friend a month or so ago, we both spilled our life stories to each other. hers had a lot to do with making idols of friendships. it got me thinking...do i do that? yup. i definitely did with this one. Right now i'm just hoping that that mistake didn't ruin our friendship.