surrender

this weekend is great. friday night we went roller skating. i felt like i was a kid again, and i loved every minute of it. then we had a sleepover. this afternoon carolina beat the citadel. easy win, but a super fun game. got to sit with new friends. then i lost my waffle house virginity. is that inappropriate? ehh i don't care. it was yummilicious. then we went back to kristin's house and watched clemmy LOSE. YAY! go wolfpackkk! then we listened to friends play guitar. reilly and carly. it was money. we listened for hours. and cooked dinner. and laughed and danced. it was so encouraging. you can really see their strength in the Lord in their music. amazing. here's just a little taste:

i gotta say - i was a little jealous of some of the people i graduated with getting to go back to lead roanoke's fall weekend. i know i couldn't have gone anyways, but it still kinda sucked to hear them flaunt it. brought back old pains from last year. not a fan. but ya know what? i had a great weekend. tomorrow is midtowns baptism. that's gonna be so amazing. basically a perfect weekend. which is really what fall weekend is to me anyways. sucks that i couldn't be there and so much old crap was brought back up through that, but hey, i'm over it. i'm trying really hard to get over everything from last year. it's hard though when one of my best friends is still stuck in it. i'll figure it out though. i'm not worried. so go ahead and lead. those girls loved me too, i feel confident. i love them so much. but i'm not needed. the Lord didn't need me there, He knew that what i needed was a push to get over it. and that's what i'm doing. kiss the old goodbye, bring on the new. i'm ready.